SNEAK PREVIEW FROM PEELING BACK THE MASK
{From chapter one}
Quite often you'll find yourself in deep thought triggered by pent-up hostility by some injustice aimed at you and with that being said I will attempt to expose the dirty little secrets hidden behind the mask of smiles.
It started for me approximately six years ago when I ventured to move south to what is known as the Bible belt. The Bible belt is given to a region considered to be known for many churches and spiritually minded people.
Like everything else things aren't always as what they appear. I fellowship at this tiny little church and on a good day we may hold sixty people and on a normal day it's approximately thirty-five to forty.
I remembered when I switched my membership I chose to sit in the rear of the church, so I wouldn't be noticed as I watched the behaviors of the other members. Sitting in the back of the church has many advantages; you'll see the subtle little things being done discreetly while others up front hope that no one else has noticed.
In the rear of the church I have noticed some of the adults as well as the children trying to quietly open candy wrappers and enjoy their sweet delights while hiding their trash in the section used for the hymn books and bibles. I’ve watched some carefully sniff their armpits for odors because perhaps they had forgotten their deodorant that morning, and others adjusting their hair-pieces and neckties.
One of the funniest things is watching a sleeping member whose head violently snapback when they fall asleep while hoping no one notice the drool coming down the side of their mouth. My all time favorite is when someone coughs and farts at the same time and tries to look dignified while praying that no one smells them. The different personalities are hilarious at best but didn’t Jesus say “Come as you are”?
But we the body of Christ hope you don’t stay the way you came. Like any other congregation I would imagine that the members with the mental disorders create a situation that brings distress and heavy sighs from the rest of the members when those members get up or speak.
Immediate apprehensions set in because you never know whether they will again cross that line of inappropriate speech or actions and blame it on their condition or medications. When secretly they are doing what they wanted to do because they know they have an acceptable excuse.
My days sitting in the rear of the church were brief because I was urged to sit closer to the front my one of the older members so I complied. I have regretted that decision ever since, and I never should have broken routine from my chosen seating arrangement and advantage point.
Now I’ll just call these members the Kennedy’s who had urged me to sit up front near them. Every congregation has them they are the well dressed members but there are some that make everyone sick with their pompous air of superiority.
Because those members that were blessed to be able to over spend on their accessories and make sure you knew it and that they only wear real jewelry, truly insults the fact when you offer your appreciation for their style.
Because those members that were blessed to be able to over spend on their accessories and they would make sure you knew it that they only wore real jewelry, truly insults the fact when you offer your appreciation for their style.
While self-righteously forgetting that they also throw a dig at the one offering the compliment or others not as fortunate as they currently have been blessed, especially when no one really cared about that small detail of fact.
Their true colors crept through behind their smiles and the mask that they wore. Yet acting like the best Christians on Sunday and back-biting and gossiping when your back is turned is the reason why a lot of new Christians will leave the church and don’t return.
Sometimes church is where you lose your religion because there are so many phony people sitting right in the church that even I have felt the urge to curse them out and change membership.
Well getting back to the structure within the church it appeared that the closest to the front you sit is considered a position of authority or prestige. Me personally it was a pain in my butt because I didn’t feel like I wanted to be on display or insinuate that I needed to be noticed as someone special in the church on their unspoken V.I.P. list.
Plus on those days when I just couldn’t get it together because I wasn’t sleeping well at night or because of my own personal drama, I would also have to stay awake when the sermon was uninspiring and couldn’t hold my attention or my eyes open making being up close to the front a real problem.
Often I would feel guilty sitting in church appearing like I was praying when I felt nothing but bitterness and prayer wasn’t in me while holding my head down. Enjoying brief moments of welcomed sleep and hoping I didn’t begin to snore.
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More shocking stories will be told from deception, wife battery, cross dressing and mental disorders and dirty little secrets and lies as you stay tuned for "Peeling back the mask" coming in 2012 along with the release of "Confessions" in 2012.
"I'M SURE SOME WILL TRY TO HIDE FROM THE TRUTH, AND SCANDALIZE MY NAME BUT LOOK CLOSELY AND THE PROOF WILL BE THERE"